Disapline?

[Luvoral]

This is espically for kinky women.Usually when showering I love to masturbate and usually orgasm.But after I feel ashamed and want my h/b-master to disapline me,giving my bottom a good paddling or dening me sex.Putting on my restraints and making me just watch him have sex with my sister sub[as we call it].But this only a turn on for me and I want the disapline to be more than what he thinks it is.I want to be disaplined,not turned on.Sometimes i want more paddling,even thought to be caged like a dog or even let him ejaculate on my face[which I have never liked],even more bondage like I have seen a woman being hog tied in a movie and having several men fuck her ass and cover her in cum...Though I still love intimancy I also seem to want to go to the extremes of kink,which I always thought was disgusting....My master does not want degration involved in our relationship,but I just desire more disapline and have these nasty thoughts...Are my cravings gone to far?

[Budde]

Originally Posted by Luvoral

This is espically for kinky women.Usually when showering I love to masturbate and usually orgasm.But after I feel ashamed and want my h/b-master to disapline me,giving my bottom a good paddling or dening me sex.Putting on my restraints and making me just watch him have sex with my sister sub[as we call it].But this only a turn on for me and I want the disapline to be more than what he thinks it is.I want to be disaplined,not turned on.Sometimes i want more paddling,even thought to be caged like a dog or even let him ejaculate on my face[which I have never liked],even more bondage like I have seen a woman being hog tied in a movie and having several men fuck her ass and cover her in cum...Though I still love intimancy I also seem to want to go to the extremes of kink,which I always thought was disgusting....My master does not want degration involved in our relationship,but I just desire more disapline and have these nasty thoughts...Are my cravings gone to far?

I personally see it as your fulfilling your sexual destiny so to speak. You are wanting and doing things you once thought to be disgusting, things you now in fact crave. You've tasted once forbidden fruit and you like it's taste so much so you can't get enough of it. The interesting thing of it all to me is what made you think these things were disgusting or in fact did you always want them but subconsciously you suppressed them do in part to outside influences. You are proof positive my dear of the phrase, "never say never". I believe you are finally experiencing the real you.

Good for you, some people never see their ful potential realised

[Luvoral]

Originally Posted by Budde

I personally see it as your fulfilling your sexual destiny so to speak. You are wanting and doing things you once thought to be disgusting, things you now in fact crave. You've tasted once forbidden fruit and you like it's taste so much so you can't get enough of it. The interesting thing of it all to me is what made you think these things were disgusting or in fact did you always want them but subconsciously you suppressed them do in part to outside influences. You are proof positive my dear of the phrase, "never say never". I believe you are finally experiencing the real you.

Good for you, some people never see their ful potential realised

Thanks and yes this is me.don't get me wrong,i never did or really care if i have sex with another man,but my submissive nature came along later in my life when i married such a wonderful man who has given me everything...You are right i was always worried about what people would think...i once told a friend that i would love to be his slave for the great life and mind blowing sex he gives me...she thought i was crazy and asked me do you want to be his whore...after awhile the thought of being his whore began to intrigue me [of course this is only sexual],and to me was not disgusting...I want to give him all the pleasure that he deserves,fulfill all his fantancies,along with mine[which is to seve him],i love it...also he has let me be whom i am[bisexual],even letting her live with us.though i know this has benifits for him,that's what i want...the bondage and craving for spankings was set off by some sexy fun,at first with little love taps while holding my arms..now i want a red fannie,being bound so i can't move and him having complete control in everyway...it's both mentally and sexually fulfilling to me...he knows now this is me..he he wants me to be his whore,then let it be...i am his slave,though not treated as one would think.a very spoiled one...Thanks again,Luv

[Budde]

There's some old saying that goes something like every man wants a lady in his living room and a whore in his bedroom. There aren't too many of us who care to share our private lives with the people we know and we "keep up appearances" if you will for the over all big picture. As what goes on behind closed doors is no one's business but our own. None of our friends or family have any idea of our Dom/Sub relationship. Everyone who knows us See's us as this "normal" couple with the dogs, kids, farm etc. I have my professional acquaintances at work she has her circle of friends I have my M/C club brothers and none know about each other. This is what works for us, it may not be for everyone else but we don't care about anyone else or what they think. Life is too short not to live it the way you want to and your proof positive of someone who is getting the most out of her sex life and it sounds like life in general for that matter. Living the life you do is a big step a massive change so to speak but it speaks volumes of the trust and love in your relationship. Unless your into it no one can understand the level of personal commitment there is in a relationship such as yours... in short very cool