So, I'm somewhat in a down state right now. I am with an amazing woman, whom I dated for about 9 months, we split for a short time back in july. I think she more or less needed to find out if things would work out with her daughters father. I knew it wouldnt, anyhow over christmas time we came back into eachothers lives. Its been amazing since. I'm not happy about her leaving me to begin with, but at the same time if its something that needed to happen, better then than years into a relationship or marriage.
I on the other hand after we split was very depressed and wanted nothing to do with any other girl. Till one night at the bar a very very attractive girl seduced me. The sex was great, and she told me that, "you are so hot you could have had any girl in the place if you'd just ask em" I took it as a nice compliment... Pondered it over the next week and by the next weekend, went out again. This time I sought out the very most attractive gal in the place started chatting and within 20 minutes asked her to come over for some fun. It was still early, around 10ish. I live about a 2 minute walk from the bar. We went back had a good time, and walked back to the bar and went our ways. Now my confidence is through the ROOF! I would be bored at work, message a few girls myspace or whatever and hook up with them that very night. I started to realize women really arent any different than men.
I'm 25 years old now and feel like I have just really started to truly get into my wild side. Though I have had quite a few partners earlier on, and experimented in all types of ways. I still have this feeling that I need or want to get this wild side tamed....by means of using it up ; )
But, now I'm back with this woman whom I love deeply, I have had no extra curicular sex or anything with anyone else since we have been back togather.
I am very satisfied with the sex we have, its the best I've ever had. And I am happy with her. Up until last night, I thought to myself "im with the girl I want to be with, so I dont need to desire these other things" But at the same time, my sex drive is sky high and I feel like I'm trying to tame a wild beast. I will not go out and cheat, I have had many thoughts about having another girl join us in our sex. I know she has attraction towards other women, as we like to go to the titty club once a month togather.
All in all, I'm at a crosswalk here and not sure which street to cross.
Anyone have any insight into this?
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